May 24th and another day

Well, yesterday came and went and was rather uneventful. Other than a moth fluttering around my living room, an ancient symbol of a disembodied soul, the day was like any other. Chris and I will be going to the cemetery on Friday afternoon simply because trying to get to the cemetery mid-week is crazy at best. Hopefully we will have Jenny's memorial stone in place soon and the visits will have a slightly more tangible meaning. I think loosing Jenny was hardest because of the medical reason as to why we lost her; her placenta failed, plain and simple. But in that simple statement lies the most pain. The placenta is the lifeline for the growing baby. The expectation is that the placenta will do its job while mom does her best to eat right, take her vitamins, stay away from toxic stuff like paint fumes and cigarette smoke. Basically be healthy and the baby will grow. But in Jenny's case the one most fundamental element after conception was the problem. And worse, we didn't even know anything was seriously wrong; we knew she was small but we just assumed that our dates were off. So much for assumptions! We had a couple more very early losses (4 & 6 weeks) after Jenny and so, with Morgan, we became hyper vigilant and cautious. It was a lot of work and a lot of stress and a LOT of Doctor appointments and in the end we have a beautiful little girl. As I've said before having Morgan makes me miss Jenny; I really wonder if they would have resembled one another. Odd thoughts but that's the way it is sometimes.

Three years and the new fundraiser date

I can hardly believe that Jenny's 3rd anniversary is almost here. We are still trying to get the word out about the JMC Foundation, which has not been easy. Partly that is due to the economy but in large part it's my fault. Plain and simple, depression is a spoiled little brat! Depression eats up a lot of my time and energy when in reality it should get neither. It's not that I go out of my way to feed into my depression, I do my best every day to live my life and to be there for my children and husband. And in that lies the problem; I get so busy 'being there' for everybody else that I haven't taken a lot of time for my self. I believe in pressing on and that is what I am doing, everyday. Which brings me to the next point of this blog, the next fundraiser! I have found out that Easter 2012 will come on April 8th and Mother's Day 2012 will come on May 13th so the fundraiser will fall somewhere between the two dates (perhaps April 14th or 28th, 2012?). Anywho, the 2012 Fundraiser will be a Bowl-A-Thon and we are hoping to host it at The Thunderbird Lanes in Northeast Philly. I will be posting the specifics soon but in general we are looking for folks to form teams and acquire sponsors. Of course there will food, prizes and lots of fun for the whole family!